You said life is meant to be unforeseeable
You said I can’t help myself
You said I don’t need help
You said I shouldn’t complain
You were all I ever had
I was taught
I was taught that love
I was taught that love can’t be real
I was taught that love can’t be real if you force it
I was taught that love can’t be real if you force it to be real
It was implied life will be unyielding
Therefore I have no choice but to live
It was suggested I give up
Yet here I am
It is questioned as to why I’m here
However, no fear or dubious thought has held me back
What is my biggest fear?
Is it commitment?
Commitment to myself? Other’s I truly love?
Is it standing on my own?
You were all I ever had!
You are fear! Frustration! Infatuation! Morosity! Anger! Anger! Anger! Anger!
I question everything about you!
Why can’t you let me be? NO! Don’t leave me!
You are all I ever had! AAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!
I look you dead in the eye
I have no more questions for you
No more wondering, morose feelings thickening
And sticking itself to the walls of my heart
No need for therapy
I know how I feel about you
I know how you think
What you think of me
What I don’t know or will ever know
Is what to call our correlation
But I guess for now
You are all I’ll ever have